Friday, February 15, 2008

Beautiful

The snowstorms started January 1st, and have placed a heavy weight on my heart. More and more each day, I just want to pick up stakes and move somewhere with blue sky, green grass and leaves gently swaying in the balmy air. I'm tired, so tired. Tired of cancelled plans, delays, shovelling. Tired of people bustling by without saying hello. Tired of feeling trapped in a house I love, but can't stand to look at anymore. Tired. And sad. And tired of feeling tired and sad. Because I know I am blessed. I have two beautiful children that make my heart smile, a husband who is the person you can't wait to grow old with, lovely friends and loving family. So here is my Friday resolution:

To find amazement in the weather, not disappointment.
To find challenge in the snowbanks, not despair.
To find generosity on the roads, not anger.

To find playfulness in the attempt to get two children out the door in winter, not automaton precision.
To find health in the exploding diapers, not mountains of laundry.
To find growth in the tantrums, not annoyance.

To find music in the screams, not dischord.
To find peace and solitude in the day, not loneliness and isolation.
To find joy in the everyday, not tedium.
To find a happy family in the mess, not more to clean.
To find togetherness in the demands of parenting, not separation.
To find a mother in the haggard looks, not ugliness.
Because I am as beautiful as I feel.

Thanks, Carole.


21 comments:

Gabriella said...

Those all sound good to me! Hopefully spring is around the corner because I am not looking forward to another snowstorm.

metro mama said...

This weather is really getting me down too. Everything is so much effort.

kittenpie said...

Gah. Bloody blogger ate my comment.

anyhow, if you figure out how to do that, let me know. Because between the trudging through snow, the prodding the whiny kid along through the drifts ahead of me, the wrestling on of snowpants, the lack of sun, the endless colds and coughs, and the general feeling of blah, I am SO PAST READY for spring.

And hey - you are beautiful, no matter what they say.

kgirl said...

dude, i feel the exact same way and it's not our fault. according to enviro canada, out of 150 daylight hours so far this month, 22 have been sunny. If that's all i'm getting, i'd rather be in sweden.

Beck said...

Oh, I'm so bummed out right now. Stupid winter.
Let me know when you figure all of that out.

Kyla said...

This is the ONLY time I feel sorry for you Canadians. LOL. The long winter and the bluey blues. I'd loan you our sunshine if I could.

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That does sound great, but, Man, easier said than done. Speaking of done, I am SO done with winter... the last week or so I have just been chanting to myself, "I hate winter. I hate winter." But that's not a very good example is it? Here's hoping spring is just around the corner!

painted maypole said...

great resolutions. good luck!

the dragonfly said...

Winter doesn't last forever....

Here's hoping spring comes soonest!

:)

ewe are here said...

Ugh. I've been complaining about the cold here, but I think your bad weather is running circles around ours at the moment.

I hope spring comes soon...

wheelsonthebus said...

Here's to a positive outlook!

petite gourmand said...

thanks for this post.
my exact sentiments.
I will not complain about the weather anymore.
or at least try my best not to.
besides spring is really not that far away.

Jozet at Halushki said...

Uck, yes...I have horrible cabin fever.

But that is a beautiful resolution you've listed. Mind if I borrow it?

bren j. said...

That sounds just about perfect - and here's to the expedient coming of spring!!

Mimi said...

Oh yeah, I'm feeling it too. Gah. And we broke our shovel from overuse. Awesome.

b*babbler said...

You put into words exactly how I've been feeling about this winter.

(Interesting note? Every book that came up in your LibraryThing sidebar I have on my own shelf, and I've already read 4 out of 5 of them :)

Back to the comment at hand... coffee date soon? An antidote to the horrific weather?

LoryKC said...

What a beautiful resolution! Thank you for sharing the song as well--I needed that today!
Thanks for the inspiration!